Deep down

I wanna stop feeling like this.

Or maybe unknowingly I've already stopped feeling anything.

Or maybe I'm just missing the good parts.

Or maybe just maybe, whatever I dreamt of just fell short.

Whatever it is, I've been sooooooooooooooooooooooooo busy with school and work lately.

A good distraction.

Gonna get myself inked kinda excites me.

I'm fearful.

What if it hurts like a bitch against my ribs.

I guess thats what being alive feels like.

To have fear.

But what if I'm fearless?

Fearless doesn't mean no fear.

It means knowing that you're fearful yet not letting anything hold you back from living your life to the fullest.

Life then, is limitless.

I don't know why I'm typing like that today.

In broken sentences.

I'm so sleepy.

I like the new font on my phone.

Typewriter font.

Oohh tak tak tak tak tak.

Maybe I should attach a picture of my screen now.

I will indeed.

SY

I'll never forget the way you smiled as we said our last goodbye.

I'll miss you.
I'll miss our late nights.
I'll miss our impromptu lunch dates.
I'll miss those crazy car rides.
I'll miss your scent.
I'll miss seeing your name appear on my phone.
I'll miss holding your hand.
I'll miss your kisses.
I'll miss cuddling with you.
I'll miss our silly conversations.
I'll miss how I feel when I'm with you.
I'll miss calling you your pet peeve.
I'll miss our stealth modes wherever, whenever.
I'll miss watching you inhale that last cigarette.
I'll miss that look on your face solely meant for me.

Above all, weirdly,
I'll miss rummaging my fingers through your hair.

And now, I'll just miss you because that's all I'm allowing myself to do.

I realised what I want is actually very simple.

To cuddle in bed after a long day's work or school, with my significant other and just watch a movie from the laptop or something.

But since I'm single, I can cuddle with my bolster and watch chick flicks or whatever the hell I like.

Hahaha and so I did. Ratatouille after a long and dreary Monday.