Sometimes you don't know what you truly want or need.

Heard of the saying "be careful of what you wish for"?

You just either have to trust in God's bigger plans or that in life everything happens for a reason.

Have you ever wanted something so bad. Like really bad. To the point, you prayed for it, birthday wished for it, threw coins into the well and hope for it, or even to the extent of wanting to exchange the world for it?

Yeah I did.

Sometimes I get it, sometimes I don't. Other times I get it and then I either lose it or it's mercilessly taken away from me.

The point is, at that moment I wanted ______ so bad. Like shouldn't life start to be a little fairer to me prior to what happened? Isn't it time for my life to bounce back? If my life was a movie, it would be now whereby someone comes up to me and say "Hey, you've hit rock bottom, what can be worse than this? It can only get better in time."

I cried buckets. Then lo and behold, I got what I wanted. I thought my dreams came true all at once. I thought I was the happiest living soul that day.

And then shit happens. Murphy's law. It always do. And I couldn't understand why. It was as if whatever prior to that wasn't bad enough, and life just went like "Hah you think it's over? You thought wrong. I'll show you that it CAN get worse than that. It's not over yet."

Double whammy, double the blow, double the wrench.

Then I cried some more, cursed even more, till I was desperate no more. Like I just gave up.

Months down the road, ______ was mine again. And I guess I just don't want it anymore. Maybe I no longer feel the same, maybe situations changed, maybe back then I didn't know what I wanted, maybe I just wanted it cause I couldn't have it, or maybe even I knew it was bad for me but I wanted it my way, anyway.

Perhaps God knew better, perhaps time showed me things much clearer, perhaps I just grew older. But right now, at this moment in time I'm blessed with _____ and never in my wildest dreams will I ever think that such an amazing thing will ever happen to me.

For all you know, what you hold so precious to you now, could only be a fraction of the greatest thing you need, further down the road in life. Or another way to look at it is, if you seek you might never find, but if it's meant to be yours, it will be yours at the end of the day. Cliche I know.

Whichever way you look at it, if your life is a movie, I'm the person that is telling you "Hey, you've hit rock bottom, what can be worse than this? It can only get better in time." Trust me on this. The brighter days are ahead even if it doesn't seem like it.

Hang on tight, we're in for the ride of our lives.

Love, Sarah.