16 July 2023

 I died today. Or at least a good part of me did.

Wrist

Don't know anyone who comes here anymore. Even I don't come here at all.

Four months. Haven't been working/flying for four months. A luggage fell on my right wrist and I basically can't do anything now. Wrist pain 7/10. Wallet pain 11/10. Do not recommend.

Grandma passed away this period as well. In a way I'm glad I ain't flying cause compassionate leave is only 2 days. The funeral itself was already 4 full long days. For sure would have missed her last breath and most of her funeral if I was still working. But god has greater plans. I managed to see her on mother's day and was also able to rush to the hospital to catch a glimpse of her before she left us.

In a twisted fate, granny passed on Jdy's birthday and her 49th day of mourning was the same day as Zayn's one year old celebration. Hah. Well it is what it is.

I find myself just rotting. Yet seldom making plans. Definitely more of an introvert than an extrovert recently. I got to know myself better as a whole throughout this period. Just like a fun fact thing I guess.

Also hit an emotional roadblock this week. I don't know what I should do. I don't know how to feel anymore. Not great. Nah.

Aite this is it for now. Yours truly.

3 years, not just 3 months.