Background story:
H, B and S thought that I knew the submission date but I didn't inform them on purpose. Thank god J and JA knew the whole story. If not I really cried for nothing. I mean, we were a clique. We literally hung out all the time, did projects together and studied together.
And just so if you guys wonder why would I blog about this, like wouldn't it make things more awkward? No it wouldn't. Cause I tried talking to them, I texted them, apologised when I'm not in the wrong. I'm so so so done with this shit. I'm 23 years old and graduating soon, the least they could do is act their age and just talk about it instead of doing the cold shoulder thing. It's ridiculous. We still have upcoming projs together, what you gonna continue talking to the air in my direction?!
So apparently they thought I was self centered and that I changed. I asked B if she was angry, so I heard she is no longer but like I really need to let her know my side of the story and I have the truth to back me up. For H, I'm just like y'know what, I'm hurt and that's that after all we've been through and all that I've done for you. And S, wah seriously just grow up, I'm done. Like you were once a really great friend but I'm done.
What happened:
15th Feb was submission date
Weeks before 15th Feb
Me: Eh question 3,4,6,7 etc etc don't do k, F says not easy to score.
B & S: Huh Lecturer F never tell our class leh
Me: Okay now you know.
Me self centered?!
Me: S, JA, I do half first send you all the articles after.
*all shared articles*
Me self centered?!
Week before 15th Feb
Me: Guys don't forget to rush k, submission is next week.
JA & J: Yah okay
S: Okay
*we all met up to do*
Days before 15th Feb
Me: Guys read the unit guide, the instructions complicated.
JA: Huh really ah okay okay thanks
Me: J you really need to chiong alr no time liao
J: Okay I know
They know and remembered, so they helped me and stood up for me today.
15th Feb itself
Me to groupchat: Guys instructions damn messy have you all read it?
JA: Haven't.
Me: I call you.
*4:40 Screaming at the stupid article and discussing with JA with my bf and his bestfriend listening to our convo*
*4:48 I called S to ask him if he knows how to do, B answered and said "No we not submitting today, F never say plus unit guide say end of cny week and we got presentation tomorrow" I was like "but submission is today, okay nevermind pass the phone to S" S said "My lit review not done yet so we not submitting today."*
*4:53 I called JA and updated her, HENG I DID IF NOT I'LL BE WRONGED WITHOUT ANY ALIBI. And JA updated J afterwards*
I have the above call logs just saying cause H said I didn't do what I used to do (like I used to be super helpful and now it's like they lost me already) so I should stop denying like HELLO. It's like me saying I bought something worth $100 I got receipt but you keep saying I didn't.
So like me self centered?! When I constantly reminded?! When I went out of my way?! When I didn't have to?! When all I needed to do was submit my fucking own individual assignment without thinking for you guys?! It's not even group assignment. So yes I'm self centered.
Later that night an hour before submission time
Me to boyfriend: Bb I think I should submit after we drive to JP and change money
Boyfriend: Yes you should
*Me upon submitting saw submission page "Submitted an hour early" so means left with an hour so like holy better send them screenshot that submission is really today*
Me to boyfriend: OMG bb how ah they don't have enough time :(
Boyfriend: Just let them know anyways
Me to groupchat: *sent screenshot*
I probably shouldn't have cause it was this fucking screenshot that they started this childish drama.
Them amongst themselves: She (Me) knows submission is today she never tell us until last minute.
HELLO NEVER? How many times I reminded constantly.
Even JA and J said "We reminded for weeks already and all this time we know it was submitting on Monday?"
H was still like "no no no you're just being defensive, you asked me why we weren't talking to you, this is why. I'm telling you like a brother." No, you're not my brother, brothers don't do this. Not after what I've done for you.
Wah I also don't know why I apologize or cried in school, so ridiculous. To say I'm self centered after printing notes for them previous trimester.. (so did they to be fair) To say I've changed when I always put friends before everything. To get angry at me when it's not my fault?! To backstab me after how close we were? To give me cold shoulder in school? The worse thing is to think I'll actually do such a thing to make them panic is the most hurtful part.
This to many is nothing much not worth my friendship, not worth me crying, not worth me blogging. I guess so.. But I just wanna say my POV and my conscience is clear. Crystal.
I even bothered to take the first few steps in hopes to settle everything. Now it's just like, enough is enough. I'm done. I'm graduating soon and I'll never see you guys after. We could've been friends for a long time, but now we're just project mates and I'm not gonna hold back if you give me shitty work.
Ughhh, so old for drama alr but mostly I'm just hurt. Thanks JA and J, to stand up for me means the world to me. Thank you.
