Workkk

Got this lobang from Mikelle in the UOL whatsapp chat group. Almost everyone in the chat took up working time slots so I guess I'll be spending a lot of time with my UOL friends! <3

Day 1 - Friday

Rainy day with thunder storm.

I was working with Mik, Salihin and made 2 new colleagues/friends - Jia Xuan and Kerlyn. Both sisters, both super fun. Best boss on earth - Yong Sheng. Cool guy la this one.

Read how my first day of work went here:

http://sarahfaithyong.blogspot.com/2014/06/day-1-of-work.html

Complained about the weather but it was really a lot of fun :)

Day 2 - Monday

Sunny day

Started my day grumpy due to first day of my ThatTimeOfTheMonth. So fucking painful I thought I was going to die or something..

But when the cramps subsided, I had sooo much fun just laughing and lepaking with my friends. Which job on earth pays you $10/hr to have fun? I mean, it's not easy. But even during the peak hours or the stressful period (crazy influx of taxis etc) we can still like laugh or 'talk cock' or just fuck it and chiong together kind. Plus during work you get to chit chat with cute taxi ahpeks. Hahaha eh please, it beats sitting down in the office doing boring shit admin work for fixed hours anytime k.

We managed to 'chope' today's slot such that it is all just my UOL peeps (Dickson, Mik, Sal and Shaun). I didn't think I'll enjoy their company THIS much. As in I know they are funny and all since our last sing k session.. just not to this extent. OMG I LOVE THEM. I feel like I've wasted an entire year not spending enough time knowing them better. Thank god I've still got 2 more years to form strong bonds! HENG AH.

Shaun, Sal, Dickson, Mik and yours truly. 

Today was Dickson's and Shaun's first day at work. Suddenly I become 'lao jiao' (experienced one) already. Hahaha I gave them on the job training all. LOL. My first day I tagged with Sal hehe :)

Boss took this photo. He really damn chill. 'Eh come I help y'all.' Events company boss really different pattern. I like.

So I asked him to join us for a photo too. Hahaha this was when Dickson was in a taxi working his ass off. Opps, told you we damn slack one what.

BOSS. Aiyah this picture don't do him justice. Shall take one with him tomorrow or something. 'Boss, steady la. 3 years, any event of project just drag us only. We your permanent part-timer. HAHA'

I wore my Haters SnapBack the way E wears it :(

Yay, one more cab done. Shaun's face is just HAHA.

Nua-ing with Sal. Told you paid to enjoy life only. Even working is enjoying life.

Day 3 - Tuesday

Scorching fucking sunny burning day.

HELL DAY. Guess I spoke too soon yesterday.

Thank god for Dickson, Heidy, Kerlyn, Sal and Shaun.

Couldn't even feel my legs when I reached home. Didn't even have time for lunch.

CABS CAME NONSTOP OMG.

First time see such a long queue siaaa. Boss got into a fight with some bitch fit scumbag taxi uncle. WTF :(

SOOO CRAY CRAY.

See our bloody tired cui faces (mine more cui cause I'm always the one holding the camera - look fatter):

Heidy's first day of work.. SHE POOR THING SIAAA. Didn't even get to nua like what we have been doing, but I'm glad she enjoyed herself too.

Day 4 - Wednesday

Scorching hot still..

CHANGE IN JOBSCOPE.

No more Bishan Park :( We went to some freaking ulu Woodlands SMRT Depot.

Just 3 of us today - Dickson, Heidy and yours truly.

Dickson apparently claims he is my part-time boyfriend. So.. HAHAHAHA.

Oh and I think boss just 'gave' me a promotion. Cause everybody started calling me HR. Lol. I was helping boss recruit part-timers from my Facebook and omg the response was 4hours of my phone going bzbzbzbz. WTH.

Day 5 - Thursday

Still TMD scorching hot.

HR (me *flips hair*) brought in 2 new part-timers who turned out to be SO MUCH FUN. Hahaha

This one is purposely small eyes k. TSK.

I was being a bitch. HAHA HR HAS THE POWER TO ALLOCATE JOBSCOPE SO I PLACE DIXON UNDER DICKSON. LOL. "DEEK.." Both of them "YES?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Everybody was laughing because I was being sooo annoying!

Dixon affectionately known as Dixsauuuuun :)

I love them. Really. Just supervise and laugh. Laugh like the HA-HA-HA kind.

JC. I poly leh. HAHA K SARAH SIBEI LAME. Jia Chuan is his nameee.

Being the nice HR that I am.. I placed the hunk under Heidy k. HAHA SHE MUST THANK ME.

My fellow bimbo. Lub u 1314 <3 You are so so so pretty.

Day 6 - Friday

Changing and allocation of schedule, sent for training so no red uniform today.

I am officially HR for Boss. I love my boss lah seriously. Love like siao kind. Like cannot love boss anymore before it gets weird kind. Like everybody loves my boss that kind. He coolzxcs.

Then at the end of training, everybody went home. I'm becoming such a workaholic, I went back to work with boss. HAHA. But really stressful uh, because as HR I was planning the schedules for 15 people. Madness. MADNESS.

Day 7 - Saturday

Rainy day

$15/hr but the new jobscope sucks :(

It's held at Sin Ming industrial area.

Korean boss brought Benny along!

Shag.

Day 8 - Sunday

Half rainy-sunny day

Didn't take THAT many photos. I'm just reaaally glad it's the end of this new jobscope of 2 days.

My dear's last day of work before she flies to Korea for 5 weeks of summer programme :( Gonz miz her muchz.

Guess what, extended my work shedule! One more week of work.. Hahaha stay tuned to next week's post before I fly off to Krabi and Bali for 10 days! Thank you for reading.

Wishing for a Disney ending, expecting a Shakespeare one instead.

And as expected.. I was right.

Never give up on something you can’t go a day without thinking about.

For the first time in forever, I wanna be really really reaaally selfish :(

Anybody out there re-read messages and cry themselves silly to sleep thereafter?

How I wish people will just lie to me for eternity. Fuck it really hurt like a bitch k, I am not gonna lie. I rather live in denial, in my happy little bubble.

But I have been so happy lately.. Why take that away from me? Can I say no, pretty please? :(

How I wish it was just a nightmare, like everything is going to be okay when I wake up first thing in the morning.

I know I said I expected this and stuff, but I guess you can never ever be well prepared for such um.. series of events.

A million things on my mind, there is so much I wanna say. But still I let you have it your way. I really.. wah cannot uh this one. My heart cannot take it.

(Disclaimer: this is not about my ex)

By Ella Ceron

When you settle for the only love you think you can get, for someone who doesn’t mind you being around, for someone who lets you love them — someone with whom you just kind of are, without real effort or desire reciprocated both ways — you spend your life in a hope-sustained limbo. You’re constantly pining for someone who is only ever that far out of your grasp. Every time you close your hand in on their own, you come up with air. You scroll through social media hoping to find their face, to know what they’re doing, if only to feel as though you’re with them for a moment. Every ring on the phone is a spike in your heartbeat; everything they do, you imagine doing with them, if only, if ever.

You initiate everything. Texts and times to see each other and nights you stay over. You’ve met their roommates, their friends — but when it comes time for them to be in your life and with your friends, they’re nowhere to be found. You revert back to that idea — this is just how it’s going to be. There are reasons they’re doing what they’re doing. This is the hard part of a relationship, you tell yourself, the part you have to make work. And so you grin and bear it, and become friends with their friends, when you become a part of that group yourself, when you imagine and weave your life into theirs in your mind, only to stumble back soberingly aware that you don’t really belong.

You begin to wonder if you ever did.

So why do we settle then, for this love that is full of heartbreak and uneven balances and someone who loves more and someone who couldn’t care less? Why do we bother to wrap up our hearts in bubble wrap before launching headfirst into something that’s going to hurt no matter what protective measures we take? Why do we let ourselves care about someone who likes having us around because we worship them, if we know that we ought to find someone who will actively care about us right back? Why do we take the time to sidestep around labels, knowing full well that the minute we slap a title onto something, it will feel false and forced, and maybe they’ll run because maybe they’ll think we’re trying to manipulate them into something we know deep down that they never wanted with us at all?

“Oh, but we’re not like, dating-dating,” “Yeah, we’re just seeing each other,” “No, we… well, I…” “It’s complicated.” Why do we give the big, goon-faced eyes and whisper little jokes in the still of the morning and try to worm our way into deep conversations about their dreams and hopes and aspirations, why do we try to bottle up the way they smell, thinking that maybe we’d like to keep a little reminder of this cologne or that perfume lingering around that much longer.

We call this unrequited love. We call this a crush. We say it’s noble and brave and romantic to care more, that at least we are attuned with our emotions and what we want — but most of all, we want to be loved back. It’s crushing to realize that it might be in their ability to love us the way we want them to, but they never were obligated to in the first place. And we — not they — are the ones who led ourselves on, thinking that maybe they’d change their hearts and their minds.

And we know — oh, do we know — that the first step in attracting the love you deserve is to love yourself that much and more, that you reap what you sow, that you can’t expect anyone to love you if you don’t love yourself… whatever the aphorism, we might as well have it tattooed on our hearts and in our hands, along with all the overeager text messages we never sent to the people who almost loved us, the people who kept us around, the people who we couldn’t convince to care just that much more. We mutter that they’ll miss us when we’re gone, that they’ll never appreciate what they had — and maybe that’s true, but to harbor resentment is just as exhausting as loving someone who will not love you back, and in either case, you just wind up exhausted and on the side of the road, all out of your own steam.

We try to understand why this — with all its faults and coming-up-shorts and being left wanting more — is the love we choose. We think that maybe we’re not ready for something real, so we hang onto something less-than. We tell ourselves it’s training wheels, an introductory stage into real love — but also wonder if this is the best we’ll ever get, if this is the most we deserve. This is the answer we want so desperately to believe: that this the reality we’ve chosen for now, that this pain is within our control to change.

But, then, in the creep of the dark, when our thoughts are twisted and our beds feel cold and we wonder where they are and if they’re even thinking about us, we wonder if it’s because we are truly not lovable, that this is finally the evidence that proves our inadequacy to be fully loved. We wonder if we ought to just give in, and so we gather up the scraps in hopes that they equal out enough love that satisfies us for tonight, for the month, for however long it takes to come to peace with the fact that sometimes, holding out for the kind of love that loves you back is cold and lonely and quiet and slow, but if we don’t hold onto the idea that it is out there, somewhere, waiting for us to latch on and love them back, then what do we cling to? What do we hope for?

Maybe we’re only ever just hoping for a little more hope, a little more reason to keep going, another little sign that they might care, that all of this effort and love and affection was not in vain.

Work: Day 1

WAH SHAG LA.

Damp clothes, bank notes.

Flooded shoes, white toes.

$80 for 8 hours.

But, I had a lot of fun :)

It was raining the whole day at Bishan Park :( Lightning thunderstorm wah really no give chance one.

I tell you, confirm fall sick plus gastric all.

Yay to events job though, love love love the people there la. Boss damn nice I like. I laughed so much, I mean just look at my colleague's shoes:

A slightly clearer one. This one rabak sia. HAHA.

So literally my job scope is to update Comfort and City cab drivers about the new Singtel app - Dash.

Like Comfort actually broadcast to all the taxi drivers in Singapore to come to Bishan Park for a short training session. Then we will need to board the cab and update them by teaching them how to use the touchscreen payment thingy.

Do you know you can pay for your taxi fare without physical cash or cards now?

I have never ever ever seen so many cabs waiting for me to board. Just today alone, I entertained 30 uncles and they really very cute omg. Hehe maybe because I xiao mei mei (a pretty one if I may add) so I sort of brightened up their Friday. Hahaha.

But like wtf, I was so pissed cause I was waiting for a cab in the morning and I couldn't get one. Now long queue waiting for me?! SMLJ LAH.

Oh, my mandarin has improved tremendously today. I was like omg I actually know some chim chim words at the back of my mind?!

Okay I test you all, what is the Chinese word for 'screen'? Ans: 屏幕 Píngmù

Like I actually said that without anyone's help, so proud of myself HAHAHAHA.

So I'll board the cab, then I'll tell the uncle in English or Mandarin: "HELLO UNCLE! Good afternoon! I'm from Singtel. You know now got new app to update you right? Customer don't need pay with cash or cards already, now everything technology aiyoh I also cannot catch up. HAHA. It's this new mobile payment, come I show you. Okay you see ah, go turn on then turn off your meter then you press this this this then you see your screen got this button right? Yah press 4 then press 3. Then if the customer say want to pay by Dash, you need to read or show the counter code to them. Then the money will be deducted from their bank into your bank account. Happy hor? Uncle don't smile smile. So far so good? Okay good. Hehe oh today Friday right, confirm busy, eat lunch already not? Good, I haven't leh. Soon lah don't worry haha. Then you see your screen must wait till 'Approve' okay like credit card like that, cannot let the passenger run away if not approved k uncle? Now you show me how you do. Wah uncle you learn so fast. Do me a favour, you can help me fill up this form? Yah here write your name, then carplate number, then IC, then you sign and write hand phone number okay? You let me design your car in the meantime, I help you do swee swee one. *stick dash stickers* *attach help instructions at the back seat* *stick decal on the window* TADAH! Thank you uncle, okay now I give you $10 NTUC voucher k. No cannot give you two. Hahaha. Have a nice day and drive carefully ah!" Then I'll alight from the cab, board the next one cause long queue and raining!

See our uniform:

So funny hahaha. I had fun lah really. One more week to go! Money money come only.

The rain really made us all cold and wet though. Plus today I was a little sian because I received a super jialat wet blanket message that made me feel a lot colder and wetter :(

It was a dream come true. Now wake up Sarah.