To Hilda Tan

You said "more like I didn't wanna make things too ugly.." well, use your noodles for once, things wouldn't be this ugly if the truth wasn't.

I didn't wanna rage war, time and time again I blogged about my unhappiness without stating your name because I thought about how negative social media shaming would have been too much for one to take.

Imagine if I were to put your name and picture on my blog, at least 600 people (based on the stats from my previous post) would have read it, and hated you for it. I didn't want people who didn't know about you and I to have a say. That's not fair. That's dirty and below the belt.

And you did so by putting my name out there with personal attacks. I didn't say anything about your physical appearance, personality or character. If you had any in the first place. Yes I'm attacking now.

Cause I had enough.

Yes it was about you, but it was never directed at you, or for you to read it. It was just me penning or rather typing out my thoughts. It is my blog and in my previous post I didn't swear at all, unlike you and your trashy (lack of) inner beauty.

I don't have my barbie dolls cheer leading squads like you do, but I have true friends who stood by me through tough times.

Since you have already put my name in caps for the world to see, so I'm gonna deal with it, point by point. And I hope your friends send this to you too.

My friends sent to me with a different intention, letting me know what you've done behind my back. They will ask me how I'm coping and that I should let the world know my unjust, my point of view. And for those who don't know about you, I always just say some girl because I don't think I should let how I feel about you, affect them.

Your friends on the contrary are sending you stuff and hoping to see you rage, and you did. They are hoping you fight back and if this is it, bring it on. You and your so called close girlfriends started bitching about me on social media with the #teamS and one by one, they commented and started this bullying. See the dates. I'm sure you have my blog posts vs your instagram, twitter and facebook posts. Who started this. Dates don't lie. They are facts. Good luck digging.

Since you want it this way, I'll give you what you want.

Hilda Tan Jia Hui (and friends and family who commented), you wanna deal with this like a 22 year old or 12 year old. I can do both, and do it better. You wanna say it to my face, do it. But you wanna talk about my friends. Girl you're messing with the wrong person.

One, talking about Jocelyn Chua. Aka my bestfriend. You say she's siding me blindly? DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES SHE FELT SUFFOCATED AND CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE WHEN WE ALL WERE STILL FRIENDS? She never sided anyone, not even me. So Cara and Giennieve don't start acting smart and commenting about what you all don't know. Not even the slightest clue. How many times Jocelyn and I cried about this. She didn't wanna say anything until even SHE COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. She's the most non biased source believe it or not. Her point of view is going to be commented on Hilda's post, even I have no say, so just shut up already y'all.

Two, Heidy Yeo. This, I really cannot take. You don't even know her. You say she's ugly? She's the one person nobody I know will ever wanna mess with. She's so so so so so nice and beautiful both inner and outer that many of you are lacking of. She doesn't even bitch about people. She was just supporting me because for somebody as passive as her to wanna say something, that's how much you have gone overboard. Her fingertips has more knowledge than what you have in your entire brain, if you have one. She doesn't need make up, her skin is flawless and if she's that ugly, she wouldn't have a pilot boyfriend now, will she? So watch what you say.

I don't hate you, you wish I did though. Hating you will take up a lot of my time and you're not even worth me hating on. But me feeling sore about the aftermath you created, that, that was what I couldn't stand. I don't understand how you can just walk in my life, be nice, be friends and then wham, bitch mode on. I was there for you during The Coach period. You cried, I was there, we were there.

Don't think so highly of yourself, about how you think I'm insecure because of your existence. You think I blamed you for my breakup with YK? Please, if somebody like you could even shake our relationship, it says a lot about us. So no, it's not your credit to take. But I have witnesses telling me how you threw yourself at him during our break up period. Girl code. You have broken all girl codes.

And that is disgusting.

No doubt I thought you were pretty, with make up on that is. But it was over a whole year of being your friend that totally made me think otherwise. You need to start eating make up cause your insides need help. I sound so pathetic now, maybe you're right. A whole year of dealing with you wore me and us (a few others) down too.

You're always about you, yourself and surprise, still you. A whole year of listening to you whine about boys, about being single, about how others treated you, have you thought about why you always sounded so miserable and always a victim? How have you treated others?

When your 3 guy friends were attached, you were single and unhappy that their attention wasn't yours already. I remembered how many countless conversations I had with people who knew you and how you always wanted full strength when they were out with their other halves. If you are dating someone now, or not (I don't really care) but aren't you happy now all the attention is yours? Only you'll know.

Back to girl codes, your barbie cheerleaders don't know what you said behind their backs. To think they support you till now, they have no idea, do they? Am I playing dirty now? No, because like what I said in the first sentence of this post, the truth is ugly. And they don't know that.

And no, for Christ sake. I didn't drop out of UOL, I withdrew to travel for a year and do whatever I deem happy not that it's any of your business.

With this I conclude all my unhappiness with you and we can go live our separate lives now like how it was a year ago when my life had no drama, until you of course. Thank you.