I don't think I'm suitable for this job. Not so much job-scope wise but more of like everything else that comes with it.
I put others before self. This is not to say that I'm not selfish, I am, just in other ways.
I hold back and let myself be a pushover.
I willingly and stupidly take the blame for others.
I apologize far too much.
I'm extremely nice to everyone hoping others will do the same.
I naively believe that everyone is a friend only to get blindsided so many damn bloody times.
I'm afraid of seniors and juniors bully me.
I care too much.
I get emotionally affected everytime something goes wrong and it brings me down.
I still let history repeat itself over and over and over again.
Why am I still 'here'? Because even after everything I found a few humans just like me. And it makes everything so much more bearable. They are not colleagues, they are friends that I'll keep for a long long time. Besides, I really do love my job so yeah. I chose my poison.
