Wednesday, 9 September 2015
General Elections 2015
Sunday, 30 August 2015
Filter
Finally got down to privatizing my instagram. Deleted all those ghost followers and still admist deletion. I realised I really don't appreciate people I don't know to have a preview into my life without me actually knowing. Also, I don't need to be ms popz so I don't need numbers to boost my ego.
I'm not saying that I'm not gonna make my account public anymore, but for now I guess its good for me to filter who I allow to have a snippet of my day to day life. Maybe when I'm ready again, I might just public my profile once more. I have nothing to hide, I'm not ashamed of my life, I just prefer some privacy, for now.
I've cut more than 300 followers (some accidentally), and this is only the beginning. Not forgetting there's this awkward grey-zone group who are acquaintances but they don't really know me.. It's not about the numbers, but the fact that I'll wonder sometimes: So did they or did they not see my photos? Do they actually agree with my life? They didn't 'like' my photos is it cause they are judging my life? Are they taking screenshots and gossiping behind my back without me knowing? So do I unfollow them or not? But sometimes I'm really not interested to know about their lives. Sounds harsh or mean even, but if its my account, technically my right to choose right? But really just different interest or I don't understand what their life is about then it's okay if they don't have to understand mine too right?
Also there are some followers of mine who became friends. It's like they have such an interesting feed and I'm glad instagram happened if not I wouldn't have been exposed to their interesting hobbies, for instance. Like I don't know them but they actually agree or rather, support and 'like' certain decisions I make in life. It's a pity I'm not really friends with them in real life, after all they are people with the same interest and all. We'll definitely click y'know?
So I guess I'll just have to really filter who I want my target audience to be. But mostly, I just wanna be comfortable with my social media diary.
Ps: 966 followers to 602 and still dropping for good.
Pss: Disclaimer, I hope I don't end up pissing people off if I accidentally unfollowed you *fat fingers*
Thursday, 27 August 2015
Just something I need to get off my chest I guess
Years back, a girl"friend" asked me a question: "Don't you think you should reflect on why all your guy friends' girlfriends hate you?"
And my answer was straight up "No?"
Because I know I haven't done anything wrong and maybe their insecurities should be addressed by communicating with their other halves.
I remember specifically when B texted me and said he's in love with another girl. I spent days and nights telling him that he shouldn't cheat on J and how he should try to remember what he first fell in love with J for. That B must try his best to keep their relationship going. And how I think J is an amazing girl.
But along the way many things happened and I guess I can say I just clarified things with J. Even then I guess its just one of the many times I'm misunderstood.
Then another crazy girlfriend H of my classmate W threatened that she would burn my hair if I sat beside W in class. LOL that was the first and last time I sat beside W. Legit wtf how is this my fault. Other girls can sit beside W, just not me apparently. W was my classmate of two years. You for real, sister? I was late and I just found a seat beside him, I also kena. Wow.
Months back, my close friend R was cheating on his girlfriend. For weeks I scolded him for being a manslut and said I felt for his girlfriend, so please don't do this to her. Be a man and do the right thing for both of them. Apparently the girlfriend thought that I was a threat and that she really disliked me. To think I'm being a bro for her. Hah.
So is it my fault that I'm being a good friend or are girls these days just unbelievable. Just recently, I have had yet another incident as such. I am feeling so sian and there's nothing I can do to make them like me.
In fact, I don't need them to like me. I just hope my friends don't 'unfriend' me because of their other halves.
Ps: Names have been changed.. or not hahaha
Pss: some of you might think I was also an insecure girlfriend when it came to HT, but I have had reasons as stated in the old posts. So yeah. Maybe those girlfriends have their reasons too. But oh well, I just had to get it off my chest.